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Sunday, February 15, 2009

Hiya people=D

I know..i know..i was supposed to be writing this post like aeons ago but well i just couldn't seem to find time and energy to write it..thats reason number 1..well reason number 2 is extremely embarassing to admit..it reflects badly on myself and I HATE THAT!..but i guess there is no hope for it since it's my fault and i do owe you guys/girls..well its that i kinda wanted to give up blogging because...umm..when i compared my blogs to others..its just sorely lacking...in EVERYTHING!UrghT_T..i know..i know..we shouldn't compare ourselves to others and be contented with what we can achieve with the best of our abilities..blah2..but i can't help it..its in my nature..urgh..people who have played MU with can testify to my persistence and desire to EXCEL in something that i bothered with..(in MU..being the RICHEST of course^^)..and so since i am just zilch-equipped with making my blog outstanding...i quit...Unfortunately or issit fortunately?..u guys don't quit at nagging me to write so here i am..at ur service..Motivated and touched by your love/concern and interest in reading about my life..Oh yeah..Please do consider that im only blogging now because i am so damm F**king BORED before you people go AWW and WEEPY over my saccharine layered words...haha..thank you=D

Since..it was valentine's day yesterday..i would write my thoughts about that BLASTED day..it really(x infinity) sucks to be single on valentine's day..urgh..all those couples in love and being sweet,nice,lovely,affectionate and whatever else to each other is more than enough for people like me to run helter-skelter for the safety of my room before i just explode from the Overloaded sugar intake or suffer from a slow and torturous sugary death..shudders=X...i wanna die in the cold arms of winter and snow thank you!..Aniwae..its kinda ironic...valentine's day about love and giving..but all i see is selfishness..couples in their own world..parading about town, carefully-dressed and loaded with gifts-flowers,ballons,teddy bears,chocolates and the works..Are they competing with each other to see who can give the best gifts?Showing off how much they love their gf/bf?They are so obsessed with the concept of valentine's day that they are ignorant of the feelings of single people who are blatantly confronted with the fact that THEY ARE SINGLE wherever they go on that particular day... -_-

I sound very bitter don't i?Haiz..if im being really honest with myself..i'm just dissing valentine's day coz i wished i am with someone too..i'm sure if one has someone to spend valentine with..it would be a day full of everything your read about in all those fluffy romance fiction^_^..Blah..even primary school kids seem to be more advanced that i am..they are already in relationships not those kind of puppy love thingy sumore..wth..i cant believe i cant get a partner despite being older than they are..grr..lets see..primary school-im too short and childish..secondary school-all guys..jc-no one interested in me..urghT_T..issit fate?Musing about it like this..i kinda regret not accepting those offers i had long ago..i wouldn be single now if i had would i..this must be karmaT_T..lets see..wat happened if i had taken up the offers..

If i had taken up the old men offers..i probably would have lost my virginity to disgusting,sagging,veiny and smelly old men who probably cant even get hard without the use of some kinda tool.. What's worse.. in some cheap and dirty hotel somewhere in chinatown..urgh..sorry but no thxXD..nothing is worth hating myself for it after that..next please!oh yeah..the girls..hmm..nothing wrong with the girls..except i don't feel anything for them..they feel nothing for me except probably as a prop like a new bag or something though i cant fathom why they even bother...for if im a bag..im probably a pasar malam bag=X..not worth the chase..moreover they are like pesky mosquitoes..why???coz they wont go away after i rejected their offer and i bet they just love sucking my money dry..plus i don like gals that are whinny and naggy and..I LOVE STRONG WOMEN!^_^..so yeah...not my ideal kind of relationship either..Aha!..i seem to have forgotten someone..I got it!..there was that schoolmate who asked me out on a date..He was really experienced and has moved in more mature circles than i have..what an honour eh..an experienced and wordly guy fell for poor lil me..BUT PATHETIC PICK UP LINES!..seriously..i mean if u wanna get a boyfriend..would you go for someone who regaled you with stories of his sexual exploits with other guys and how many one night stands or cubicle copulations he had..uh2..i don tink so..he's really "experienced" eh? =P

Hmm..im really glad that i didn accept their offers though..i would have regretted it my entire life through..But that doesn mean i wouldn't like to experience that magical feeling of being with someone i love..I have had crushes before=X..major ones..i even thought i was in love with em but nah..the feelings were just of admiration really..and so they ended up as my gege(s) or sisters..the good thing is i get to further my friendship with em and genuinely love em..but juz as siblings..the bad thing..i still don get whats so great about being together with someone you love..so yeah..im still looking for that supernovaic blast of love that instantly ignites when i meet the person meant for me..call me a loser..a dreamer ..a helpless romantic..whatever..its all worth it to save myself for that one person who choose to love me for all that i am and not..As i read once..there is a difference in being in love with someone and loving someone..being in love with someone is not a choice..its to like someone for qualities that that person has and when the person loses those qualities..he/she loses the love of his/her lover..so its not eternal..on the other hand..to love someone is to love a person for regardless of his qualities and those he lacks..its a choice..so even if the person made u mad..is disfigured and being dependent on u...is evil and watever..u will still love the person regardless..so pardon me..I LOVE BEING SINGLE!I'm gonna save myself and my virginity for the person i love and who loves me backXD

10:44 AM ; smile'

thePROFILE;

Name: Herman
Clique Title: The Bitch XD
Age: 18+
Birthday: 22 August 1989
Horoscope: Leo
School: Elias Park->Victoria school->Yishun JC

theLOVE;

People i love:
My Family...
-mama
-Older Sister(Dahliah-Katak)
-Younger Brother(Ardhi-Kiki)
-Younger Sister(Amirah-Momo)
-Granpa
-Grandma(departedT_T)
-Aunty Yati
-My maid(Tante)
My Clique...
*Mubaraq(Mubs-The SLUT)
*Nur M.(Mat-Fat2)
*Ernest(Ernie)
*Daniel(Dan"Knight")
*Ken(The Flash Bomb)
*Sadik(The Blind)
*Karthik(The Dog)
~Roy(My Oldest Best Friend)
~Kia Yong(My gege=D)
~All My Friends^____^
Hobbies:reading, sleeping, shopping, swimming, badminton, gaming, chit-chatting..got alot more=X

theHATE;

I HATE MYSELF!!!

theWISH;

(1) My loved ones to be happy and in good health=D
(2) Promotion to jc 2 this yearT_T
(3) 7A's for A lvls(5 more to go!!!)
(4) An i-phone =X
(5) Bag similar to my current 1..brown,canvas and leather blend:)
(5) Becoming a better person-_-
(6) Making a difference with my life^_^

theCHATTERBOX;

theEXITS;

April
Melissa
Jie Ying
Lynnette
Shamine
Chervonne
Phyllis
Jerene
Ms Denise Ong
Nurayn
127 Class Blog
Weiwen
Daniel
Billy
Liak Y.H.

thePAST;

theMUSIC;

ur music code here

theCREDITS;

host: blogger
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picture: deviantART
designer: winter min
pls do not remove the credit.