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Friday, July 11, 2008

FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!I LOST CONTROL!..DAMMIT!...I really didn't want this to happen..I didn't want to show people the UGLY side of me..but i couldn't CONTROL the raging emotions that surged through me..I couldn't help it..i juz wanted to SHRED him to PIECES..TEAR him from limb to limb..MUTILATE his FUCKING face..in short...i wanted him..ELIMINATED!..in the WORST way possible!

I can't stand his fucking attitude no more..sure2..i have always felt sorry for him for i know what it's like to be different and have people treat you differently..how much you desire to be accepted..how you love people to laugh at something you did..how important recognition is to you..but grow up BOY!..look around you..are you that fucking dense?can't you see how many people are irritated by you and your quirks?I don't deny that you're funny at times..but seriously..there is a time and place for everything..

I'm really sorry that i behaved like a fucking jerk just now with a fucking attitude problem but i couln't think properly..my mind was just focused on you and nothing else..except for the sole purpose of shutting you up..your annoying juvenille actions and superior smirks..they really riled me up..couldn't you fucking see that i was trying to be serious in addressing the issue..why the hell can't you accord the same respect i accorded you..i seriously considered your team's argument..but what were you doing..solely focused on winning and shooting off your mouth..HELL!..even your own team didn't get the nonsense that you were spouting..

Shit..i hate dragging past issues into current conflicts..but what the hell..i have had enough..damm the consequences..studying is near impossible with you around..you disrupt the lesson..interrupt while the teacher is teaching with ur redundant actions and comments..distract us when we want to focus on the task at hand..generally making a nuisance of yourself..for what purpose?Fine..i will admit..that i am partly at fault..for being a jerk..coz i hate having attention drawn on myself..especially when the attention was not something i was prepared for..so i was already tense,panicking and you juz aggravated me enough to cross the line..so yeah..i wont deny my own mistake..

FUCK YOU!Your probably thinking that now at me..yeah..you probably have the right to say that..afterall im dissing u..and i am no saint myself..so yeah..who the fuck gives me the right to patronise you right..well you are right..i ain't nobody..you can dismiss my words..afterall..it's just what i think right..and of what importance am i to you..nothing..but hear me out...it isn't just me..i won't mention names..but if you wanna keep your friends..you better do something about yourself..sure2..friends who can't appreciate you for who you are..are friends not worth having..yes..i admit thats true..but on the other hand..Friendship is also about compromise..you win some..you lose some..in this case...your taking it all...only to lose everything..

Blah..im done with this topic..im cool now..yeah..blogging really is an outlet for emotions..thank god for it..or people like me would have erupted like volcanoes long ago..haha..what to do..im a leo..the strongest fire sign afterall..proned to acts of passion and easily led by emotions..lolx..hey!perhaps its not blogging that tamed my anger..i just had a bath!o.O..my fire was doused by the water!COOL!!!!^^

WARNING!!!The next section would be the about the next installation of the adventures of GG!
For those of you rolling your eyes and thinking "OMG!!!..NOT THIS AGAIN!!!HERMAN SERIOUSLY HAS NO LIFE!!!" please skip the section..

Haha..wednesday again..lolx..funny how everything happens on a wednesday..heh..oh yeah..probably coz i was absent from school coz i went to see the doctor..had back pains..something wrong with my spine..probably due to the fall i had when i was a child..heh..was skipping down the stairs happily when i slipped on a puddle of vomit and slid down on my back down the stairs..think of a skateboard..albeit a human one..yeah..it hurts like a bitchXD..

Blah..aniwae..there we were..in the new canteen after school ended..coz we were all hungry..yeah..so we munched2 and gobbled some snacks..and tadah..we spotted poor my lim s.k,our chemistry teacher..he ROCKS!!!yup2..he sure does..he's really great at teaching chemistry..i love chem..though i kinda suck at it..oh yeah..im digressing..aniwae..he was eating alone..so we skipped over to chit chat with him..yikes..this part is embarassing..

we:Hiya Mr lim!
Mr lim:Hey..what are you guys doing here?
Me:Haha..we see you no friend so we come over to chit chat with you=D
Others:HERMAN!!!!

Stop laughing dammit..I can't help it..I was just being candid..coz well..he is one of my favourite teachers..so i talked to him as i would my friends..lolx..aniwae..GG being a "PRO" at small talk asked cher a couple of questions..

GG:Mr Lim..do you noe any shuai ge in this school?
Mr lim:No...
GG:(crestfallenT_T)
Mr lim:Why??
GG:Nvm..do you know a guy named kia yong?
Mr lim:err...no...why?
GG:HE DAMM CUTE!!!(the fangirl expression in full force!)
Mr lim:Stunned(13secs)..err..ok...Does he know you like him?
GG:Nope..he so innocent!!!
Mr Lim:Waah..he so dense???

Haha..so now even teachers know of GG obsession with kia yong ge-ge..lolx..its damm funny..ahaha..whats even funnier is the scene after this..we were walking across the canteen on our way out when one of us spotted wai leong and yelled it out...haha..guess what happened..lolx..GG who was opening her bag of crackers instantly turned to look in his direction..totally forgetting about the crackers in her hand and DROPPED it!..lolx..haha..she was so mortified..and there we were,,laughing our heads off..people staring at us..probably wondering if we were escapees from the mental hospital..oh yeah..Gege..don be sad..GG said you're still number 1=P

hehe..day 2..thursday that is...well..all of us in the clique as we call it signed up for the maths and science quiz and we had to attend a briefing session..it was damm boringT_T...lolx..GG wants to be the ambassador of the bowen team coz gege is from there and well..so is alot of guys she eye candies..so yeah..probably scouting for future victims once the year 2 leaves..she has a hare-brained idea that only bowen has good-looking people..i hate to admit it..but i kinda agree with her..at least it applies to yjc..haha..im gonna team up with her..someone has to keep her in check and restrain her^_^

heh..aniwae..she received a text message from another classmate..the contents being..KIA YONG IS IN THE LIBRARY!!!...haha..u should see her demented giggle when she read the sms..she volunteered to enter the library and tell our friend that we are off and if he was coming along with us..all a pretext of coz..with the motive to ogle kia yong..HELL NO!!..we are not that stupid ok!..lolx..we followed her to the library basement and instantly saw gege with eugene studying..haha..

so yeah..we settled to wait for our friend as he finished discussing his pw stuff..lolx..how did we occupy our time?haha..talking about gege of coz..lolx..even the guys were part of it..we are all like super radars now..we can pick his signal whenever he is like within several metres..lolx..yeah..so practically everyone in class knows she likes him by now..so yeah..we were discussing who was better looking..kia yong or eugene..well..most of the guys say eugene..GG..no need say..ky of coz..but eugene is like 2nd to her..sorry gege..i said eugene too=X..but if cuteness category..i will vote for you of coz..you will probably win hands down!..coz ur undeniably cute=D..lolx..next we talked about body build..sorry again gege..you were outvoted again..well..you had one staunch and loyal supporter..no points for guessing who...

Haha..you and eugene then went up for something..dunnoe what and came back talking to someone..lolx..GG..was like transfixed staring at you both..lolx..but more at you of coz..complaining that she only got ur back view.. but still saying its better than nothing..vincent was like trying to call you over for a conversation and GG was like getting redder and redder by the minute..i bet her mind was going into overdrive thinking about that prospect..pity no nosebleed though..that would have completed the situation...she was like saying..no..no..don't want..yet we are all so not fooled..we can tell she would enjoy your presence being so close to hers..haha..oh yeah..that reminds me..you ignored me again..im so hurt..sniff2..its impossible that you didn't see me..DepressedT_T

Oh..thats not all!..you went back to your work and well..GG wanted a photo of you..but well..for some reason..all our cameras were not equipped at taking a photo of you properly at a distance..so vincent being the gutsy one..walked towards your direction on the pretext of borrowing a book..accidentally spotted you and made small talk to distract you while he took your photo with the phone nestled in his palm..sneaky eh..haha..a pity kenneth interfered and mission failedT_T..

Plan B!vincent borrowed a book..pretended to read and using his camera..hid it carefully behind his book and took a snap of you...haha..had to zoom in a couple of times though..but yeah..it worked..mission accomplished!smart vincent!haha..we decided to leave after that though..coz we felt kinda guilty and bad for making so much noise...while people were trying to study..haha..poor gege..u didn't notice all this did you?haha..thanx for cooperating with us..XD

END of chapter

Back to me..the star of my own blog..haha..melissa was really nice to me=D..Her mummy gave her red bean buns to bring to school..but she don like em..so she gave em to me to eat..haha..free food..YAY!^__________________^..its a good thing too..im like so hungry..trying to save money..and all i eat most days is a plate of maggi mee at home..and no..its not coz someone in class called me FAT!Don't you dare laugh...IM NOT FAT!IM NOT!!!!...Am i?

haha...my new blog template damm cute right?haha..my clique mate..fat2 found it and changed it for me..coz well..im a computer GUNDU..applies to computer related stuff too..Haha..THANX FATTY!!!(lolx..i hate people calling me fat and i call people fatty..KARMA!!!T_T)..kk..thats enough for today..cya..im off..will update next friday..good night..sleep well..happy dreams..jaXD

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