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Sunday, February 15, 2009

Hiya people=D


I know..i know..i was supposed to be writing this post like aeons ago but well i just couldn't seem to find time and energy to write it..thats reason number 1..well reason number 2 is extremely embarassing to admit..it reflects badly on myself and I HATE THAT!..but i guess there is no hope for it since it's my fault and i do owe you guys/girls..well its that i kinda wanted to give up blogging because...umm..when i compared my blogs to others..its just sorely lacking...in EVERYTHING!UrghT_T..i know..i know..we shouldn't compare ourselves to others and be contented with what we can achieve with the best of our abilities..blah2..but i can't help it..its in my nature..urgh..people who have played MU with can testify to my persistence and desire to EXCEL in something that i bothered with..(in MU..being the RICHEST of course^^)..and so since i am just zilch-equipped with making my blog outstanding...i quit...Unfortunately or issit fortunately?..u guys don't quit at nagging me to write so here i am..at ur service..Motivated and touched by your love/concern and interest in reading about my life..Oh yeah..Please do consider that im only blogging now because i am so damm F**king BORED before you people go AWW and WEEPY over my saccharine layered words...haha..thank you=D


Since..it was valentine's day yesterday..i would write my thoughts about that BLASTED day..it really(x infinity) sucks to be single on valentine's day..urgh..all those couples in love and being sweet,nice,lovely,affectionate and whatever else to each other is more than enough for people like me to run helter-skelter for the safety of my room before i just explode from the Overloaded sugar intake or suffer from a slow and torturous sugary death..shudders=X...i wanna die in the cold arms of winter and snow thank you!..Aniwae..its kinda ironic...valentine's day about love and giving..but all i see is selfishness..couples in their own world..parading about town, carefully-dressed and loaded with gifts-flowers,ballons,teddy bears,chocolates and the works..Are they competing with each other to see who can give the best gifts?Showing off how much they love their gf/bf?They are so obsessed with the concept of valentine's day that they are ignorant of the feelings of single people who are blatantly confronted with the fact that THEY ARE SINGLE wherever they go on that particular day... -_-



I sound very bitter don't i?Haiz..if im being really honest with myself..i'm just dissing valentine's day coz i wished i am with someone too..i'm sure if one has someone to spend valentine with..it would be a day full of everything your read about in all those fluffy romance fiction^_^..Blah..even primary school kids seem to be more advanced that i am..they are already in relationships not those kind of puppy love thingy sumore..wth..i cant believe i cant get a partner despite being older than they are..grr..lets see..primary school-im too short and childish..secondary school-all guys..jc-no one interested in me..urghT_T..issit fate?Musing about it like this..i kinda regret not accepting those offers i had long ago..i wouldn be single now if i had would i..this must be karmaT_T..lets see..wat happened if i had taken up the offers..



If i had taken up the old men offers..i probably would have lost my virginity to disgusting,sagging,veiny and smelly old men who probably cant even get hard without the use of some kinda tool.. What's worse.. in some cheap and dirty hotel somewhere in chinatown..urgh..sorry but no thxXD..nothing is worth hating myself for it after that..next please!oh yeah..the girls..hmm..nothing wrong with the girls..except i don't feel anything for them..they feel nothing for me except probably as a prop like a new bag or something though i cant fathom why they even bother...for if im a bag..im probably a pasar malam bag=X..not worth the chase..moreover they are like pesky mosquitoes..why???coz they wont go away after i rejected their offer and i bet they just love sucking my money dry..plus i don like gals that are whinny and naggy and..I LOVE STRONG WOMEN!^_^..so yeah...not my ideal kind of relationship either..Aha!..i seem to have forgotten someone..I got it!..there was that schoolmate who asked me out on a date..He was really experienced and has moved in more mature circles than i have..what an honour eh..an experienced and wordly guy fell for poor lil me..BUT PATHETIC PICK UP LINES!..seriously..i mean if u wanna get a boyfriend..would you go for someone who regaled you with stories of his sexual exploits with other guys and how many one night stands or cubicle copulations he had..uh2..i don tink so..he's really "experienced" eh? =P


Hmm..im really glad that i didn accept their offers though..i would have regretted it my entire life through..But that doesn mean i wouldn't like to experience that magical feeling of being with someone i love..I have had crushes before=X..major ones..i even thought i was in love with em but nah..the feelings were just of admiration really..and so they ended up as my gege(s) or sisters..the good thing is i get to further my friendship with em and genuinely love em..but juz as siblings..the bad thing..i still don get whats so great about being together with someone you love..so yeah..im still looking for that supernovaic blast of love that instantly ignites when i meet the person meant for me..call me a loser..a dreamer ..a helpless romantic..whatever..its all worth it to save myself for that one person who choose to love me for all that i am and not..As i read once..there is a difference in being in love with someone and loving someone..being in love with someone is not a choice..its to like someone for qualities that that person has and when the person loses those qualities..he/she loses the love of his/her lover..so its not eternal..on the other hand..to love someone is to love a person for regardless of his qualities and those he lacks..its a choice..so even if the person made u mad..is disfigured and being dependent on u...is evil and watever..u will still love the person regardless..so pardon me..I LOVE BEING SINGLE!I'm gonna save myself and my virginity for the person i love and who loves me backXD



10:44 AM ; smile'

Friday, July 18, 2008

HOLY SHIT!!!TAXI FARES ARE LIKE ASTRONOMICAL!!!It costed me FREAKING $20 to board a cab from my house to school!ok2..fine..i live is pasir ris so its like kinda reasonable right since my school is in yishun and thats very far away..?WRONG!...it costed only $13 like 5 months ago..dammit..the price hike really is a KILLER..$7 more and going by the same route?WTH!..I guess it has finally sunk into my thick skull..I thought that the increases in prices didn't really matter coz well..im not working am i?I don't have to foot the bill and all..but now paying for my taxi fare out of my own pocket money coz it's my own fault i woke up late...i feel the pinchT_T..Imagine how our parents feel then?the same scenario repeated a hundred times?moreover..its the money they worked damm bloody hard for...and seeing their kids spending money as if the increment in prices didn't happen..i bet they feel a pain in their hearts..sure..they don't say anything but well..they are humans too..so yeah..not to be preachy or anything..try to spend less to alleviate their burden a lil k..thats all im saying about this matter..oh yeah!THANK GOD I stopped taking cabs everywhere i go!!!PHEW!!!


Heh..aniwae,it happened like this..my maid nudged me awake every 15 mins starting from 5.30 but i was just too tired..my thoughts with each nudging.."blank".."mumble2".."go away..".."5 more mins".."OMG!!!IM LATE!!!!"..Haha..what to do..Panic la..mad scramble for the bathroom..lolx..by the time i was ready to leave for school..its already 7 am..haha..no choice but to take a taxi or i would confirm be late and receive detention..thats not to say i didn't consider ponning school and going to the polyclinic like i used to..afterall its much cheaper $5 only plus have 1 whole day to slack ok!Tempting as it is..i decided to go to school..coz well..im a GOOD BOY!YAY!XD


Haha..i give u evidence ok..i was late coz i was so tired from the activities of the day before..i have a physics class at 7 pm to 9.30 pm every thursday..a programme called "SPECIAL PROGRAMME FOR `U`"..get the pun?A remedial class for all those who scored a U grade for their physics..like me..URGHT_T...Aniwae..yeah..i was dismissed from school at 1pm and i wanted to take the physics paper and do it at home..coz i didn wanna wait till 7..i didn have listening comprehension see..but teacher said its unfair to the rest if i get it first..so yeah..i didn get the paper..however..he said..i could take the paper another day and don't return to school if im not inclined to do so coz its a hassle for me..but if the other teachers call for those who didn't attend the carefully structured programme to be punished..then too bad for me la..


Blah2..the gist of it though..i went home..took an hour..did some work at home..rushed back to school..took another hour..GETTIT!I CAME BACK TO SCHOOL!!!..U can just imagine the shocked looks on my classmates' faces and their expressions of disbelief.."HERMAN?...Herman?..U so slack..U actually came back just for physics?"..waa haa haa..See..im a GOOD boy...APPLAUSE please!thank you...thank you=D...Haha..its a big moment k..coz i super HATE physics..i juz don have the physics brain..T_T


Haha..but im starting to love physics though..especially kinematics coz thats what we did yesterday..questions on kinematics..graphs included..haha..coz i found the secret to doing kinematics...i juz have to imagine and create a cartoon based on the descriptions given in the question..tadah..now i can see the whole question occuring in animation style..i even added sounds so its much more realistic^^(the question regarding the flying watermelon was the best one..coz the watermelon had to crash..SPLAT!!!)..woohoo..so much easier to solve!Haha..kudos to my fantastic study partners too..Jia ling,Shameer,Yasmin and Rafael..couldn't have succeeded without em..Waa haa haa..im so proud of us all!We finished all the questions.No blanks!haha..The feeling when we completed the paper damm shiok!CHEERS!!!^___^


oh yeah..the evil food and nutrition chief of alexandra hospital came to my school on thursday morning to gave a talk on healthy lifestyle or something..i actually paid attention instead of yakking away with my friends at the back..i regret it thoughT_T..no more 2 bubble teas per day..no more big packet of lays sour cream and onion potato chips each day..no more maggi mee..no more ice-cream..no more everything...Waah..so sad..i wanna cry ler..the evil woman targetted all my favourite food..and2..the worst part was..She was encouraging us to eat VEGGIES!OMG!..the picture even showed it occupying half a plate with rice and meat occupying 1/4 each..She is seriously out to get me..I SWEAR!I can barely eat 1 piece of veggie(assisted by minimal chewing and drinking a whole cup of water..)..How the hell am i supposed to consume veggies?


Haiz..but then i resolved to at least resolve my diet into a more healthy one..coz well..i don't wanna die a painful death..shudders..so yeah..i put my plan into immediate effect(bought apple,honeydew and pineapple)..im gonna go on an all fruit diet in school!yeah..Great Idea right?My friends don't think so...


Gobi:Herman!Were you paying attention to the talk?
Herman:Of coz!It was like so interesting!
Gobi:STUPID!You go and listen to that idiot for what?
Herman:She the head of alexandra diet sector ok..
Jie ying and Gobi:Hah!(snort of derision!)..she such a hypocrite..so FAT still wanna lecture people on diet..she should go on a diet herself!
Herman:*Giggling away*..Nvm la..i very fat ler..must eat at least 2 kind of fruits she say..
Jie Ying:I don't care what she says..i was sleeping during her talk aniwae..im gonna eat what i like..afterall we only have 1 life and we are all gonna die one day..so i might as well enjoy life..
Herman:true..(i don't dare argue with em much further..coz all 3 of us are very opinionated..being all arts students..and we can argue till the cows come home without conceding the others' opinion..one has to give...before we start taking it seriously...so yeah..i gave in so we proceeded to other topics..)


My ex-classmates,still my close friends are damm bloody evil..they play with my monkey yet keep teasing me about it..oh..for the benefit of those who dunnoe..monkey is my pencil case..its furry monkey and damm cute!XD..my sister got it as a gift but don't want it so she gave it to me..they think its weird that i have a monkey pencil case but my current classmates don't tink so..they tink its damm cute also..yay!..thanx guys!=D..so much for being arts students and being open minded!..and when i said that..they rolled their eyes and said science people are childish and im no longer an arts guy..they even bet i would fail lit if i were to take it again..the cheek!im as much an arts person as they are even if i do take science now!grr..i'll show u!


Tuesday was P.E day..haha..i brought my p.e kit this time round coz my friend shameer challenged me to a badminton match..though he is a soccer guy..just to get me to go for p.e..haha..so i agreed..coz well badminton is the only sport i will play with friends..other sports i will only play with people very close to me..lolx..my classmates damm surprised i actually really seriously going for p.e..coz i am on permanent mc and i don hesitate to use it..ehehe=P..lolx..alot of my classmates suddenly wanna play badminton with me..coz its rare that they get to play and interact with me on a physical level i suppose..haha...BUT!!!Boo Hoo Hoo..it's the season for structured games(like frisbee..)T_T..so no badminton..so i didn't go for p.e..haha..


I went to chit chat with the rest who ponned pe..haha..aniwae this was the conversation i had with one of em..lets call the person R!


R:Herman..You are always surrounded by girls right?
Herman:Err..Why You ask?(stunned..like so random!)
R:Coz your face very..(i think he dunnoe how to describe it)..and i always see you with gals..
Herman:umm..i suppose so..(kinda awkward..)
R:I knew it!..ur face is the kind of face people like to hang around with..
Herman:...(got such a face meh?)
R:Can teach me how to get girls?
Herman:Umm..just ask em out?


This is like one of the weirdest conversation i ever had..I guess its a compliment to me..meaning that i have quite a good face no?HELL YEAH!WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG TO REALIZE IT HUH?But seeing as u finally got it..i will forgive u..see..i so niceXD..of coz alot ppl like me la!..but eeyer..so not fun de..this is like the 3rd guy in class who said im good-looking..why no gals de?Yikes!!!Im not a guy magnet ok!(dammit!..francis,old man monster..waah..so many incidents to prove this wrong)..think herman think..aha!Got gals also ask me out can!strangers sumore!see..i can attract the opposite gender also can!


Aniwae..wats so hard about asking someone out..u like the person then just ask la..ok..granted i have never really liked anyone so i dunnoe how it's like..but i have always thought if u really like someone..u would go all out to get someone..so what if u get rejected..u can give up or continue trying..up to you..but to give up without trying..to me..thats the greatest loss of all..u would never know what might have been and regret it all ur life..haha..aniwae R..if ur reading my blog..thank you for complimenting me..but i don deserve it..coz im really quite average..ok..maybe UGLY even with all my pimplesT_T..and yeah..my only advice to u is just be urself..coz its no point pretending to be someone else..everything gained is just a farce..


But..if u really wanna noe how to get gals..then ask the guy GG is going gaga over..my fav guy in school..kia yong..haha..gege..guess what i heard about you..lolx..i was stunned then i was damm tickled and laughed my head off when someone told it to me..haha..i dunnoe if u remembered..but apparently in lower sec or something..u set a girl's hair on fire!^^..waa haa haa..i never would have expected it of u..BAD BOY!haha..u so mean..bully a girl..lolx..i supposed the girl did deserve it cause everyone hate her or something..heh..im being bias..but what to do..u are my gege after allXD..no2..thats bad!no excuses!Waa haa haa..im still so amused thinking about this as i write my post..heh..im not gonna tell u who told me..if not later u shut her up and no more funny stories about u lerT_T...WHOOPS!..i let it out thats its a gal!!!Eh..nvm..got so many gals..u sure dunnoe which one deXD


Eh wait girls!Don't mutilate and kill my gege yet!I know you have to uphold the bonds of sisterhood and kill this vile excuse of a man but i beseech you..please hear me out..he is not that bad..deep inside is a tender and kind boy..i witnessed it personally and i solemnly swear that im not making this up..i was on my way to school..when i looked back and i saw gege with his younger sister..he was walking slightly ahead of her when a car approached..instantly he put an arm in front of her to prevent her from moving any further..such a simple unthinking gesture always overlooked..the car would have to hit him first before getting to his sister..this instinctive protective gesture is not something just any guy possess..Hey!why are u gals crying?What?You wish you had a brother like him too?OI!Get some other guy to be ur gege!He is already taken!By me!SHOO2!XD


AWWW..haha..touching isn't it?simple but yet moving when you actually take time to consider it..aniwae..i mimicked my gege's actions..lolx..i saved "my" spider from death!Heh..it was maths lesson and i was dreadfully bored..coz its a tutorial involving lotsa graphs and calculator work...when berlinda told me something was on my sleeve...it was a SPIDER!yay!Boredom is a no more=)..spider damm fun to play with..u put it on ur hand and it will jump off like some parachuter with its thread attached to ur hand and linked to its body-end..so yeah u grap the thread and the spider will dangle and extend its thread to move towards its destination..continue reeling in the thread and the spider continues extending the thread..the faster u pull..the faster it produces the thread..damm fun..the spider nvr runs out of thread..


Its not considered abusing the spider right?coz i really didn't intend to be cruel to it..i would have let it go if i knew it hurts the spider..haha..then teacher called on me..so cannot play ler..later teacher scold meT_T..shafiq and jia ling sitting beside me shared no love for my spider so shafiq wanted to smack it with his paper but i blocked it(HIIIIYAAA!No one bullies my spider!)..then i put it at the back of shahrool's chair..so smart of me^^..now my spider can rest and make a web and no one can do anything to it without disturbing shahrool..Nobody wanna have a mad shahrool to deal with if they can help it..hehehe..


Jerene was really mean to me..to think i'm fondly called her Ah Gong..Yet..she doesn't treat me like a beloved friendT_T..we were walking out of school and it rained so she took out her umbrella to share with me coz i don have one..Exemplifying one of VS core values..i became a gentleman and held the umbrella..coz im a guy and she doing me the favour right?Instead..She insisted on holding on to her umbrella..guess why..."AH GONG!I want to hold the umbrella!Later,people think we are together!"..Like WTH!!!..aniwae..some people already think we together can!Who cares!We noe we not together can ler..then i called her out on it..saying later people laugh at me..coz a girl holding the umbrella for a guy..like so paiseh..she can laugh and say don't care..Jerene is a fabulous grand-daughter hor!YA RIGHT!=P


U guys all read right?Melissa promised to bring me some food right?haha..on monday..she brought a tuna sandwich and wanted to give it to me..but i don't want coz later she no food..waah..i so nice to her ler..she still go and whack my head with newspapers..OUCH!..sumore in the library!everyone can see can!!!(my classmates were there!!!)..so embarrassing!!!!i get bullied by a gal!=X..waah..lynnette,my god-daughter and april,my best gal friend were with her and instead of fussing over my wounded head..they laughed at meT_T..so evil!!!But,im glad i made em laugh..coz they very stress..being j2s and i rarely see em anymore coz we are all so busy..


Yay!Im about done..before i go..please..lets all observe a minute of silence out of respect to melissa who has departed from the world of blogging..she was a fantastic blogger who posted many wonderful pics,sharing a slice of her exciting life and a great tagger who made other bloggers felt as if their stories were important and that someone actually cared for em..enough to take some time to tag(MAJOR HINT HERE!!!!!XD)..ok2..im gone..gonna bathe now..cya=D



6:28 PM ; smile'

Friday, July 11, 2008

FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!I LOST CONTROL!..DAMMIT!...I really didn't want this to happen..I didn't want to show people the UGLY side of me..but i couldn't CONTROL the raging emotions that surged through me..I couldn't help it..i juz wanted to SHRED him to PIECES..TEAR him from limb to limb..MUTILATE his FUCKING face..in short...i wanted him..ELIMINATED!..in the WORST way possible!


I can't stand his fucking attitude no more..sure2..i have always felt sorry for him for i know what it's like to be different and have people treat you differently..how much you desire to be accepted..how you love people to laugh at something you did..how important recognition is to you..but grow up BOY!..look around you..are you that fucking dense?can't you see how many people are irritated by you and your quirks?I don't deny that you're funny at times..but seriously..there is a time and place for everything..


I'm really sorry that i behaved like a fucking jerk just now with a fucking attitude problem but i couln't think properly..my mind was just focused on you and nothing else..except for the sole purpose of shutting you up..your annoying juvenille actions and superior smirks..they really riled me up..couldn't you fucking see that i was trying to be serious in addressing the issue..why the hell can't you accord the same respect i accorded you..i seriously considered your team's argument..but what were you doing..solely focused on winning and shooting off your mouth..HELL!..even your own team didn't get the nonsense that you were spouting..


Shit..i hate dragging past issues into current conflicts..but what the hell..i have had enough..damm the consequences..studying is near impossible with you around..you disrupt the lesson..interrupt while the teacher is teaching with ur redundant actions and comments..distract us when we want to focus on the task at hand..generally making a nuisance of yourself..for what purpose?Fine..i will admit..that i am partly at fault..for being a jerk..coz i hate having attention drawn on myself..especially when the attention was not something i was prepared for..so i was already tense,panicking and you juz aggravated me enough to cross the line..so yeah..i wont deny my own mistake..


FUCK YOU!Your probably thinking that now at me..yeah..you probably have the right to say that..afterall im dissing u..and i am no saint myself..so yeah..who the fuck gives me the right to patronise you right..well you are right..i ain't nobody..you can dismiss my words..afterall..it's just what i think right..and of what importance am i to you..nothing..but hear me out...it isn't just me..i won't mention names..but if you wanna keep your friends..you better do something about yourself..sure2..friends who can't appreciate you for who you are..are friends not worth having..yes..i admit thats true..but on the other hand..Friendship is also about compromise..you win some..you lose some..in this case...your taking it all...only to lose everything..


Blah..im done with this topic..im cool now..yeah..blogging really is an outlet for emotions..thank god for it..or people like me would have erupted like volcanoes long ago..haha..what to do..im a leo..the strongest fire sign afterall..proned to acts of passion and easily led by emotions..lolx..hey!perhaps its not blogging that tamed my anger..i just had a bath!o.O..my fire was doused by the water!COOL!!!!^^


WARNING!!!The next section would be the about the next installation of the adventures of GG!
For those of you rolling your eyes and thinking "OMG!!!..NOT THIS AGAIN!!!HERMAN SERIOUSLY HAS NO LIFE!!!" please skip the section..


Haha..wednesday again..lolx..funny how everything happens on a wednesday..heh..oh yeah..probably coz i was absent from school coz i went to see the doctor..had back pains..something wrong with my spine..probably due to the fall i had when i was a child..heh..was skipping down the stairs happily when i slipped on a puddle of vomit and slid down on my back down the stairs..think of a skateboard..albeit a human one..yeah..it hurts like a bitchXD..


Blah..aniwae..there we were..in the new canteen after school ended..coz we were all hungry..yeah..so we munched2 and gobbled some snacks..and tadah..we spotted poor my lim s.k,our chemistry teacher..he ROCKS!!!yup2..he sure does..he's really great at teaching chemistry..i love chem..though i kinda suck at it..oh yeah..im digressing..aniwae..he was eating alone..so we skipped over to chit chat with him..yikes..this part is embarassing..


we:Hiya Mr lim!
Mr lim:Hey..what are you guys doing here?
Me:Haha..we see you no friend so we come over to chit chat with you=D
Others:HERMAN!!!!


Stop laughing dammit..I can't help it..I was just being candid..coz well..he is one of my favourite teachers..so i talked to him as i would my friends..lolx..aniwae..GG being a "PRO" at small talk asked cher a couple of questions..


GG:Mr Lim..do you noe any shuai ge in this school?
Mr lim:No...
GG:(crestfallenT_T)
Mr lim:Why??
GG:Nvm..do you know a guy named kia yong?
Mr lim:err...no...why?
GG:HE DAMM CUTE!!!(the fangirl expression in full force!)
Mr lim:Stunned(13secs)..err..ok...Does he know you like him?
GG:Nope..he so innocent!!!
Mr Lim:Waah..he so dense???


Haha..so now even teachers know of GG obsession with kia yong ge-ge..lolx..its damm funny..ahaha..whats even funnier is the scene after this..we were walking across the canteen on our way out when one of us spotted wai leong and yelled it out...haha..guess what happened..lolx..GG who was opening her bag of crackers instantly turned to look in his direction..totally forgetting about the crackers in her hand and DROPPED it!..lolx..haha..she was so mortified..and there we were,,laughing our heads off..people staring at us..probably wondering if we were escapees from the mental hospital..oh yeah..Gege..don be sad..GG said you're still number 1=P


hehe..day 2..thursday that is...well..all of us in the clique as we call it signed up for the maths and science quiz and we had to attend a briefing session..it was damm boringT_T...lolx..GG wants to be the ambassador of the bowen team coz gege is from there and well..so is alot of guys she eye candies..so yeah..probably scouting for future victims once the year 2 leaves..she has a hare-brained idea that only bowen has good-looking people..i hate to admit it..but i kinda agree with her..at least it applies to yjc..haha..im gonna team up with her..someone has to keep her in check and restrain her^_^


heh..aniwae..she received a text message from another classmate..the contents being..KIA YONG IS IN THE LIBRARY!!!...haha..u should see her demented giggle when she read the sms..she volunteered to enter the library and tell our friend that we are off and if he was coming along with us..all a pretext of coz..with the motive to ogle kia yong..HELL NO!!..we are not that stupid ok!..lolx..we followed her to the library basement and instantly saw gege with eugene studying..haha..


so yeah..we settled to wait for our friend as he finished discussing his pw stuff..lolx..how did we occupy our time?haha..talking about gege of coz..lolx..even the guys were part of it..we are all like super radars now..we can pick his signal whenever he is like within several metres..lolx..yeah..so practically everyone in class knows she likes him by now..so yeah..we were discussing who was better looking..kia yong or eugene..well..most of the guys say eugene..GG..no need say..ky of coz..but eugene is like 2nd to her..sorry gege..i said eugene too=X..but if cuteness category..i will vote for you of coz..you will probably win hands down!..coz ur undeniably cute=D..lolx..next we talked about body build..sorry again gege..you were outvoted again..well..you had one staunch and loyal supporter..no points for guessing who...


Haha..you and eugene then went up for something..dunnoe what and came back talking to someone..lolx..GG..was like transfixed staring at you both..lolx..but more at you of coz..complaining that she only got ur back view.. but still saying its better than nothing..vincent was like trying to call you over for a conversation and GG was like getting redder and redder by the minute..i bet her mind was going into overdrive thinking about that prospect..pity no nosebleed though..that would have completed the situation...she was like saying..no..no..don't want..yet we are all so not fooled..we can tell she would enjoy your presence being so close to hers..haha..oh yeah..that reminds me..you ignored me again..im so hurt..sniff2..its impossible that you didn't see me..DepressedT_T


Oh..thats not all!..you went back to your work and well..GG wanted a photo of you..but well..for some reason..all our cameras were not equipped at taking a photo of you properly at a distance..so vincent being the gutsy one..walked towards your direction on the pretext of borrowing a book..accidentally spotted you and made small talk to distract you while he took your photo with the phone nestled in his palm..sneaky eh..haha..a pity kenneth interfered and mission failedT_T..


Plan B!vincent borrowed a book..pretended to read and using his camera..hid it carefully behind his book and took a snap of you...haha..had to zoom in a couple of times though..but yeah..it worked..mission accomplished!smart vincent!haha..we decided to leave after that though..coz we felt kinda guilty and bad for making so much noise...while people were trying to study..haha..poor gege..u didn't notice all this did you?haha..thanx for cooperating with us..XD


END of chapter


Back to me..the star of my own blog..haha..melissa was really nice to me=D..Her mummy gave her red bean buns to bring to school..but she don like em..so she gave em to me to eat..haha..free food..YAY!^__________________^..its a good thing too..im like so hungry..trying to save money..and all i eat most days is a plate of maggi mee at home..and no..its not coz someone in class called me FAT!Don't you dare laugh...IM NOT FAT!IM NOT!!!!...Am i?


haha...my new blog template damm cute right?haha..my clique mate..fat2 found it and changed it for me..coz well..im a computer GUNDU..applies to computer related stuff too..Haha..THANX FATTY!!!(lolx..i hate people calling me fat and i call people fatty..KARMA!!!T_T)..kk..thats enough for today..cya..im off..will update next friday..good night..sleep well..happy dreams..jaXD



7:01 PM ; smile'

Friday, July 4, 2008

Hooray..its friday again..the end of the week..i am like so SHAGGED!!!(not the getting fucked meaning=P)..i juz wanna curl up on my bed,snuggle under my warm comforter and drift off to Lalaland^^..also known as dreamland..but before that..its time to BLOG!!!..as promised=D


Urgh..i am like so humiliated..you know those bloody stickers we got along with the donation envelope..yeah..the frightfully stereotype of a boy and gal..yah..the colourful one..it's like the current bane of my existence..my class clique members rafael and especially vincent are out to get me seriously!!!Just because they are like oh-so-BORED..they decided to vent it out on me by making the victim..do i look like i have the word CLOWN on my face???like HELLO!!!yah..so vincent that idiot sticked a sticker on my back without me noticing but i saw their sneaky faces and knewing their juvenille mind, instantly searched my back..AHA!!i found it..triumphant..i smirked at em..how dare the imcompetent fools trick the GREAT me..but unknown to me..the first trick was to distract me while their second trick was the real deal..he stucked a sticker with its sticky side exposed to the air on my seat and i unwittingly sat on it while i shifted to chit chat..My entire clique in class laughed at me as i got up to talk to our teacher..The sticker was like a beacon drawing everyone's attention to my ass..OH THE SHAME!!!i mean..if i had a seriously nice ass it wouldn't have been so badT_T...


Once bitten,twice shy..yeah2..it didn't work..at least not for me..i got pranked again..ARGH!!!..we were entering our econs class and they aimed for the table which had stickers on em..as soon as i saw the evil glint in their eyes..i snatched the snickers and confiscated em..waa haa haa..not this time bastards!!!i wont be made a fool of twice!we then greeted the teacher and sat down.After which vincent complained that it was damm hot and wanted me to switch on the fan for him coz he too lazy to do so..he promised me he will join the guitar club with me if i did so..so i went to do my errand and was rewarded with the class staring at mt posterior and laughing..2x in a row..this was too much..i mean..they are my friends..they should be helping me!!!Apparently vincent had stickers with him and had stuck one on my chair when we were greeting the teacher..lolx..i really shouln't have urged people to vote for vincent..see how he repays me!!!but aniwae..yeah..reflecting on it..i kinda like and appreciate the joke..its damm funny..plus it entertained my classmates^^..haha..i commend them on thinking of it=D


Oh yeah..The continuation of the MAD STALKERISH FAN GIRL!!


Haha..if u guys had read my previous entries..you would have known that there is such a gal in my class..and the person she absolutely lusts for and drools over is none other than kia yong ge-geXD..haha..


We were in the canteen having our lunch break..i was the only one at our table coz the others went off to purchase their food..so yeah..was busy doing my assignments(yeah..surprise2..Herman doing his work..woo hoo..miracle..pigs are flying..)like wateva..aniwae..guess who plops down at the next table with his pals..kia yong of coz..i waited for him to greet me but he didn't..oh well..what can i say..he is as blur as always..either that or i am just plain invisible..hey..the 2nd one is good..lolx..so i made use of this opportunity..i mean who doesn want free entertainment?how do u think i get the dirt on everyone i concern myself with?coz i don reflect in their eyes..pro eh^^..i don even need to eavesdrop..im juz that GOOD!UHUH!!!


lolx..so yeah...i was all set to enjoy the show..the guys and gals came back and the gaga gal..i will call her GG in order for her to remain annonymous so she can continue in her perverse but oh so delightful game of stalking(ONLY TO HER..mind U!)..yeah..so she didn realise that he was seated at the next table and sat with her back opposite him..AWW man..nothing..i sighed with disappointment but i haven gave up hope..its impossible for nothing to happen in real life when such scenarios happen all the time in dramas..and dramas emulate real life don they?the guys teased me coz well she and i are kinda close and we were suppose to seat together but she went off to pinch some fries off rafael..so they were teasing me..quite loudly i must say about her leaving me..i winced..not coz i was sad she didn't seat beside me but coz i didn't want kia yong to know i was around..coz then he might made the connection that the gal is around and there goes my entertainment..phew..thankfully he didn hear..


My friend made my day!haha..he was seating opposite her and pointed out that the love of her life is just behind her..lolx..u should have seen the excitement and eagerness on her face..waa haa haa..here we go..i thought gleefullyXD...she turned around..saw him and a blush spread across her face..haha...i could almost see the gears working in her mind in a frantic bid to restrain herself from uncivillized actions like drooling or worse..running over to him and groping him or something..lolx..thank god she has brains!!!she turned around soon enough..even kia yong gege is not blur enough not to notice that someone is making gooey gaga eyes at him...shudders...but her neck kept twitching as if trying to look back and at the same time don look back..u noe wat im saying?haha..feeling sorry for her..the friend who had pointed out kia yong to her exchange seats with her to facillitate her oggling session in order to satiate her inner craving for him..lolx..we even helped cover her tracks by claiming that she did so in order to be in a better position to steal fries(the distance was the same even if she didn't change seats!!^^)..lolx..good friends indeed eh..lolx..She spend the entire lunch break gazing at him..


Haha..thats not all..on wednesday..we escorted our new ct mr sean tan to the tennis court and were heading back when she spotted kia yong playing basketball with his friends..i dunnoe how she does that..she has an in built radar or something..u noe like the kind the sentinels have to track down mutants..yeah..so aniwae..she dragged me along to the basketball court as if there were no other way to get to our destination..lolx..im juz a tool to herT_T..haha..i chit chatted with her..making it look like a natural situation of friends deciding to take a short cut across the court..i even hunched my back and angled my face in the opposite direction so gege wont see my face and connect the dots..not to mention i walked like super slow..so she can have her fill..lolx..she was looking at his legs..she even turned back and continue staring even after we passed him..like WTH..how much is enough???aniwae..verdict according to her.."HIS LEGS DAMM NICE!!!"


Lolx2..so yeah..today was no exception..i mean..my friend is really lovable..i adore her..but she is just scary whenever she sees kia yong..like a total personality switch..u noe doctor jekyll and hyde..yeah..something like that..so yeah..so today we met another kia yong worshipper..those 2 instantly hit it off..they are like bonded by their obsession with him..they can seriously start a fan club for gege^^..lolx apparently the 2nd mad gal met him during pae and thought he was damm cute or something and her ogl and his og made em exchanged numbers or something..lolx score!!!and he smsed her or something once..so yeah..she's thrilled..GG is not to be outdone though...kia yong took a picture with her before..just the 2 of em..so there!!!It was her display pic for weeks on messenger before she took it off..more like after i questioned why its like there after so long..lolx..so yeah its a draw..then the only way is..an all out war!!whoever gets him 1st gets him..the other girl has to BACK OFF!!!XD


haha...so we sat on the stairs..GG said it has a better view and watched gege play basketball..lolx..i don even think they registered the other players..haha...we were supposed to be concentrating on our teacher coz well..we were having a maths consultant session but i think their attention was occupied with something else..namely someone who's name start with letter k..haha..the teacher gave up knowing we are not with him and left us to our gosipping..lolx..haha..GG decided to walk through the basketball court again..coz she wants a closer view of him and his legs..lolx..haha..this time i didn't have to hide..coz kenneth was with us..so gege has no reason to think im up to no good..lolx..so yeah..we took a leisurely stroll thru the court..i even tried my hand at being a gentleman and switched places with her so she could be the closest out of the 3 of us to gege..haha..As expected..he is oblivious to it allT_T


Haha..i kinda think thats its sweet that shes doing it..crazy though it may seem..it just proves that she really likes him to the point that its not rational..jajaja..i mean seriously..wouldn u be flattered if people like u so?haha..i envy my gege sometimes..hes like a guy that has it all..yet as i have always mentioned..its impossible to dislike him and damm bloody easy to love him..so yeah..i gettit why she is the way she is over him..LOLX!=P



8:20 PM ; smile'

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Waa haa haa..Today we celebrated my younger brother,Ardhi(Kiki) and younger sister,Amirah(Momo) birtday at Pasir Ris Beach which is like 10 mins away from my house..lolx..it was a SUCCESS!!!Yay!!!haha..of coz it was..how can it not be when it was planned and executed by the evil duo..yours truly!..and my elder sister,Dahliah=D


Lolx..but it wasn't so smooth sailing actually during the planning and preparation stages...afterall we only decided to celebrate their birthday this morning..My sister's idea that is..She juz suddenly barged into my room and start badgering me on what we are gonna for the day..well..our mom is working so we cant celebrate the way we normally do with do at some upscale restaurant..but our dad is at home..OH NO!!!That's horrible..wat a bad day to have a birthday on..a day when my dad is not working..ARGH!!!Dammit we thought..Spending our day at home with dad is a definite No2..hmm...AHA!!!Why not have a birthday party for em at the beach which is their fav place=D..Hooray..we have something to work on and an excuse to run away from homeXD..plus we get to make our lil siblings super happy with a damm memorable birthday party..hey..don gimme that suspicious look!I swear getting away from our dad was not our main priority!SERIOUSLY!!!


Haha..so there we were scheming away and cracking our heads for ideas..but before we thought of anything concrete..my lil siblings came home from their religious class..the lil buggers refused to leave us alone..i think they suspected that we were up to no good..They are so MEAN..we can't help it that our faces always look as if we are being cunning and scheming..god made us that way!!


Ahahaha..so aniwae..me and sis planned to create a photo album of us 4 siblings on our adventure of Singapore while celebrating their birtday..so we could give the album to our mom for the birthday...effectively killing two birds with one stone but well..that plan was effectively killed coz momo had tuition at 4 and couldn't shift it to another day and if she skipped it at our insisntence..our mom is so gonna have our headsT_T..So we settled on going to the beach instead..lolx..next we decided to create em a HUGE card but well..another problem..we didn't have enough magazine to cut out fromT_T..haha..thirdly well..more people decided to join us like my grandfather and our maid..lolx..plus we haven yet figured out how to get the cake without letting em noe..But when two brilliant minds are at work..nothing is impossible..we got out grandpa and maid to distract our siblings while we sneaked away to buy the cake..haha..a stroke of genius wasn't it?XD


So here we go...








Haha..This was the Barbecue Pit we were at...



My sibling and I with our grandpa=D



HEHE..bet u didn't expect this right..haha..they sure as hell didn't..but cute eh..their party hatsXD



-Grandpa-->-evil twins-->Birthday duo^^



momo feeding katak=)



Kiki's turn to feed katak!



HEY!!!!When issit my turn?!?!Momo effectively shut my whinningT_T




Kiki is not about to be outdone!No WAY!Hey..why am i the victim?!?!



Lolx..feeding each other...



Getting smeared for force feeding us!!!



Momo tries to escape..BUT!!!..she FAILS!!!!




OH NO..They are PISSED..YIKES>>>OUR BEAUTIFUL FACES..ARGH!!!



EEKSS!!!IM BETRAYED..EVEN MY ACCOMPLICE HAS BETRAYED ME!!!



Guests are NOT spared!!!Poor Grandpa..he looks helpless!!The audacity!!!



WOOT!Even my maid!!!Bet she's thinking"why me?wat did i do?"



The evil duo and our product of GENIUS!!!=P



Birthday card ceremony^^



The people who owns the birthday card!



Too Obsessed reading?YOU guys should be!We worked damm hard for it ok!



A closer look at the card.The cover!
U guys already saw the middle..but AGAIN..im proud of my work can!!




The back cover=D



Haha..thats all the photos..Heh..Hope u guys had a wonderful "surprise" birthday party=D..katak and i love you guys^_____^


The End!!!







8:18 PM ; smile'

Friday, June 27, 2008

Hiya guys and gals=D..Im back!!!..haha..did u guys miss me?hehe..im milking this for all its worthXD..lolx i know u did..coz i only came back coz poeple have been asking me to resume blogging coz they missed reading my entries..woo hoo..wat a boost to my ego..HELL YEAH!!!(more compliments please!!!im starved/No!!!..make that addicted to em..lolx..ok2..im SHAMELESS!!)..but seriously though..its real touching to know that people like my entries..it makes writing them worthwhile knowing that people actually take the time and effort to read my work and provide constructive criticism..thanx people!!!Love ya^________^


Oh yeah..for those who were concerned about me due to reading the post prior to this..haha..i really appreciate ur concern and enquiry into what actually happened to cause a rift between me and my friend(he who should not be named)..and no..its not voldemort people..ok..i noe..LAMEEEEE!!!ya2..blame it on bloc tests..anyway..its resolved..me and him are friends again..YIPPEEE!!haha..i know..im so immature..like lil kid like that...who else at my age play the friend->don't friend->friend u again game?if u noe anyone tell me hor..haha..i missed playing it..used to play that game alot in primary school..haha^^..OOH!!!..u wanna noe wat helped patch us back?(Yikes!..change the word patch to bonded!..coz patch make it sound like we are in a BLOODY RELATIONSHIP and we are so000ooo NOT!!)..Guess2..the answer is...BLOC TEST!!!



haha..WTF right..bloc test of all things..but yeah..seriously..maybe schools should like cancel orientation and make bloc tests mandatory for those people entering their new institutions...practically nothing beats the interaction u see after bloc test is over(ok..some of u would say..wat about promos and a lvls and stuff?..fine!..i mean tests in general ok?now shaddup!)..everyone buzzing and grousing over the papers..despite teachers yelling for us to keep our mouths shut..heh..good bonding session eh..haha..so yeah..i ended my paper and saw my friend waiting for his bus and as soon as we saw each other we forgot our "vow of eternal enimity" and started lambasting the papers..haha..waah pro ah..An ingenious way to get people to turn from enemies to friends..i guess its true afterall..the enemy of my enemy is my friend and in this case the greatest enemy of all is... bloc testT_T


Heh..Im really saddened about my bloc tests..i think im probably gonna flunk all of em..you know the feeling you get when you do the papers..you can already predict how well you do..yeah..im ok with my gp,econs and maths..could have done alot better juz that im not really prepared for it..coz i still write extremely slowly resulting in not having enough time to complete the paper and don have enough practise so i tend to misunderstand the questions and make lotsa careless errors or else..i plain dunnoe how to do the questions..oh well..but thats not as bad as chemistry and physics..i was like totally out of my element..u now how a fish flounders when its outta water..yeah..its something like that..i read the questions once,twice..FIVE times and my brain still blank..i don even noe how to go about answering the questions..im just so overwhelmed..and seeing everyone scribbling away like its damm easy and the clock ticking away..i panicked..i juz felt so helpless and inferior..


haiz..i mean its my fault..i should have prepared more and stuff..yeah2..no point regretting but still doing it aniwae..reality sets in while "doing" the bloc tests..this is my last year if i fail again..i cant retain again..and if i fail..then i have wasted not 3 years of my life..but my entire life..coz i cant get to university can i?and no way will my life be fun if i cant even support myself..look at the many examples in the papers..haiz..im really sorry that i disappointed my family,clique,kia yong ge-ge,my friends and teachers who supported me all this while..i tried but it wasn't good enough..


Aniwae..yeah..i already quit playing computer before bloc tests started..and as time goes..im getting less and less addicted and tempted to use my laptop..so at leasts thats outta the way..my main distraction that is..oh well..guess u people wont see me much online anymore..only gonna use it on fridays to blog and stuff..coz i will probably be confined to after school study sessions with my teachers to boost up my subjects..i juz have to keep trying..coz studying is important..i realize that..


k..enough of bloc tests..its really killing my mood..yeah2..so today i went out with my clique..not the entire clique since the rest of the buggers are really busy..juz ernie and ken..went to changi village to eat and catch up..heh..food was really good..i ate the most but im still the skinniest one..YAY!XD..haha..i ate seafood fried rice and mee soto and drank 3 mugs of sugar cane juice(1 of em with lemon!)..haha..lucky i wore an oversized shirt..den my tummy not so obvious..lolx..wanted to go to the beach and catch lil fishies and crabbies but well ernie and ken complained its too darn hot..like WTH..they are army guys and ernie is a commando yet a lil sun had em whinning like bimbos with one lil blackhead..so yeah..off we went to tampines mall to buy ernie a bag for army stuff..walked round and round..entered and exited store after store..there is seriously a HUGE difference between shopping with guys and shopping with gals..well..retail therapy was supposed to get me outta my funk but it didn work this time..im with my friends yet i feel distanced from em and its a fact i am..i am the same age as em..yet they already finished with college and im still in yr 1..its getting harder for us to clique when im juz so far behind them..its not their fault..they accept me as i am..the only problem is..i cant accept myself..


dammit..im still down..aniwae..i think they noticed i wasn my usual animated self..so they humored me and did the diabetes test with me since there was a free one outside of TM..haha..i grew alot heavier..56kg to 62 kg and alot shorter..176cm to 172cm..but thank god im still healthy..BMI of 20-21..haha..ernie healthy also..commando wat..wat to do..but ken...aniwae..ken was nice..offering me a car ride home but i declined..kinda wanted to be alone to think about things..yeah..Ernie was nice too..he treated me to bubble tea to cheer me up..heh..im lucky to have em..THANX GUYS=D!CLIQUE MATES FOREVER!!!YEAH!!


Umm..so yeah..thats all folks..see ya guys next weekend..Ja!=D



8:18 PM ; smile'

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Fucker..im done pleasing you..two can play the game..we fought with amber last year and this year against each other..fine..i guess the 3 of us were never meant to be friends despite the promises we made to each other during the start of last year when we became friends..Amber is out of the game now..there's only you and me left..you really wanna play..im all set..bring it on..but it wouldn't be me that will be crying when this is over..at the very most..both of us will fall again..stuck together again till one of us falls and leaves the other a victor...its still favorable..a draw..anything that makes u feel pain..pleases me..Thanx for having been my friend though..it was certainly fun while it lasted but don worry..this time i wont let memories hold me back..lets go all out..use each other to force our potential to the fore..may the best guy win..



9:37 PM ; smile'

Monday, May 12, 2008

Lolx...My long awaited entry regarding Ferdo...Heh2..people been urging me to write2 and update..but heh..i think coz they juz wanna read about themselves..coz i will be writing a post each on all of my close friends..haha..so hurry people..queue up!Your moment of glory will come the sooner you tag at my tag box to be next..waa haa haa..im so smartXD...now all those meanies like .... who go my blog to read "secretly" will have to TAG!!!


Heh..don't you think its like weird..people coming to yjc and sighing.."No cute guys aroundT_T" or "No chiobus!"..Yet 3 months later...they are like like all giggly and blushing..gossiping away about all the cuties in school(the gals!!!not the guys!!!)...going.."he so cute!!!!!!"Urgh..Gals with that demented stalker look in their eyes are so damm bloody scary!!!and wats more..guys being called SO CUTE!!!!i mean..seriously..guys..do u like being called cute?ok fine..secretly its damm shiok the feeling..but to be gushed over and stalked and made the topic of conversationS..erm..i don tink so...its freaky not to mentioned damm EMBARRASSING!We are not cute!WE are tough and macho..thats worse..sounds like lil boys boasting at the playground to impress gals=X


Ya2..aniwae..my classmates,the girls at least are like the above examples..They are seriously ga-ga over guys in yjc after complaining so much got no good-looking guys..then in 1 week..last week that is..they sourced out at least 10 ppl who they they are oh so cute..so handsome..so dunnoe wat else..i cant fathom the minds of crazed stalker fan gals..i don even want to(shudders=X)..you should see em..skulking around classrooms stealing year books so they can drool over their prospective VICTIMS!!!fine..i admit..im guilty as well..coz well..i was skulking around as well..and well i provided all the information and profiles of their soon to be preys..and NO!..i was so not checking out people..of coz not..its a been there done that kinda thing..im just being a good friend...nothing wrong with that right..uhuh!


Haiz..so sad ah..i actually liked one of the gals once(waah..i like had crushes on so many gals ah..lolx..i also had "crushes" on so many guys..well...who cares..i like who i like!=p)..but i gave up..coz she has a uber big crush on kia yong ge-ge and well..i cant fault her right..he is juz that lovable^^..and well..we can't help who we like..so yeah..now we are good friends..more like allies/accomplice..im helping her trap him so she can confess her undying love for him to him and zap him with the love beam coming from her eyes...then tadah..he cant resist her and will fall for her..im such a genius...no wonder ppl refer to me as the relationship guru..hmm2..though i will be very sad if he don have time to play with me lerT_T..moving on..depressing thoughts are a no2 and she haven caught him yet..so i have time yet to plan my back up plan!!!!cunning lil me!XD


Aniwae..My theory is..Yjc is so sucky..that we had to adjust our tastes to such a low level in order to survive school..seriously..those 2 only are only eager to come to school juz to catch an eye full of their fav guys..no harm in that of coz..i mean..the end justifies the means right?if it helps them to study and ensure they are eager to go to school..why not..i bet alot ppl also like that also lor..i one of em=X..I bet ur wondering..How the hell is all this related to ferdo?Ferdo hasn been mentioned at all...im coming to that..i promise!!!(i can here u guys screaming at me!U BETTER DO!)T_T


Blah..aniwae..another theory of mine..this has relevance ok!yah..this is what i noticed..i was from the arts stream last year and this year the science..I noticed that for all the superiority that science people exude and their successes in the "important"academic fields..they lack something that students of the arts discipline possess..they have a lack of emotional depth(sorry science stream ppl!=X)..This does not mean they are heartless monsters..merely..emotions is not something they understand and manipulate well..its not something to hold against them..they are just like that..haha..im so proud..im both..a science and arts student..I love em both..the best of both worlds=D..aniwae..i asked my 2 ga-ga friends above regarding this theory..And they so totally agree with me!..their ideal guy is a guy with the science look but from the arts(you know why science looks?coz all their crushes from science stream(kia yong,Eugene,Jacky,wai leong, Joon Kiat...the list goes on..more guys added every single day-_-..and its kinda true i guess..science guys have this kinda looks)..where do you find such a guy?lolx..i know 1...FERDO!^___^


Haha..Looking back..im just as guilty as any other idiot...i do stereotype people..heh..oh well..they don call me a bitch for nothing^^..heh..i had dismissed ferdo as nothing but a huge lump of muscle that had no chance of going jc without DSAing...oh wait...thats impossible..since when did yjc have dsa?and even if they did..who in their right mind would want to dsa into yjc?erm..my point is..he was juz a gorilla with juz enough brain power to scratch his head to look like he is thinking when its obvious thinking is beyond his mental capacity..or so i thought..


Oh call me jealous..call me green with envy..But ferdo is truly easy on the eyes..easily one of the top 5 best looking guys in yjc..then again...remember my theory..we had to settle for less to survive..still..no choice but to admit ferdo distinguishes himself from his fellow men in any situation!Thats not a hard thing to do though for him..look at the world today..gals are going mad over guys who look like gals,guys who are slender and look as if they need plenty of care by gals,guys who go to spas,have manicures,blah2..so different from times long ago when maidens go for tough guys capable of protecting them..ferdo has the body of the macho tough guy..a rugby player..a guy capable of taking care of one he loves..one that can be depended on..one that can shelter one from the worst life can throw..of coz it really helps that one punch from him can knock most people out!XD


Ha!U snort with disdain..juz a good body?Everyone can train to have a good body..nothing special..well..that may be the case..but use ur brain dumbass..would i say he is one of the best looking guys in school if he juz has a good body?of coz not...plus he is wearing clothes idiot..how can i really judge how good his body is then..not to mention that yjc uniform seriously makes everyone looks uglier..im not making this up!but im really thankful that we are not yjc student during its earlier days..if i had to wear the uniforms then..poly here i come!back to ferdo..ferdo has an extremely memorable face..an extremely strong face..chiseled jaw,angular cheek bones and flawless complexion(Adonis?not quite..but close enoughXD)..a face of a leader..one who inspires others to trust and follow his lead..one that u have do doubt will be a success in life..making a huge impact on the lifes of others=D


Urgh..sick with envy yet?im not done yet...There is still a matter of his brains..contrary to the saying all brawns but no brains..ferdo amazes us once again by how blessed he is...he came to singapore from indonesia in sec 2 and obtained an A1 in english at o lvls..see how pro he is..we all speak english from small2 also nvr get A1..so humiliating la..sumore he got promoted not like me...according to our teachers that i interview..ferdo is extremely intelligent and will succeed in many fields if only he would show the passion,focus and hard work required..His general knowledge is impressive..He knows alot of stuff not at all related to our area of study...haha..whats more...he is PSYCHIC!!!im serious..he is like the all great oracle of 127..he knows about each and every member of 127 and gives fairly accurate readings of our past and present selves...oklah..i admit..his secret is that he act like he nvr pay attention but he actually eavesdrop and observe his surroundings very closely..see so smart right!now can know ppl secrets and blackmail em!Good one ferdo!eh wait..no!he not like me...he wont blackmail ppl de-_-


I HATE HIM!Thats what you love to say right?brains and looks..what more do you need?sorry to disappoint you..but ferdo has more than just that..Ferdo is rich(he wear armani and the works..go clubbing and eats out every single day..)..at least relatively to us average singaporeans la..aha..u say..at last..a reason to be gleeful..he is surely a snob and act high and mighty..erm..i really hate to wipe that smirk of your face but he is not=X...he is one of the most generous person i have ever met in my life..he bought the class a dinner of pizza,treated jie ying and shamine to swensens and many more instances of generosity..i cant remember them all can i...its like a normal thing for him to be generous..


Handsome,a good body,rich..still have personality right?Haha..ferdo has a fabulous personality..a man of unblemished character..He has presence..an aura that draws u to notice him and be attracted to him in one way or another..sorta like charisma..its this trait of him that allows him to be a commander of men..a person who gets the job done..we all feel the need to bask in his approval..Our pw A can mostly be credited to him..jie ying may have been the leader but he is the undisputed taskmaster..even she admited that she couldn have managed it without him..i mean..this is the guy who made me..the ultimate slacker(vs is the school of slackers and to actually be called a slacker by another vs guy is really bad=X..and i got called that many timesT_T) actually work willingly in order to secure the success of my group..this is the guy who bonded all 5 of us who are as different as they come..this is FERDO!


haha..127 has a family tree..and im probably one of the most prominent ones there..since my title is godfather..i have 3 godchildren(lynnette,aaron,kwang yong),a grand-daughter(jerene)..a niece(april)..one of the 3 founding members of the Gossip Club which had miss denise ong as a member..but nevertheless..ferdo still surpasses me..his title is that of BOSS!Normally..u have a "brother" just for urself..but ferdo was the big brother of 127..he is the guy the guys in 127 look up to and aspire to be like..he is the guy the gals in 127 tease and bicker with knowing that he will nvr turn his temper on em or raise him hand to em..he is probably the most influential person in 127..the person trusted and loved by all in the 127 family^___^


Ferdo may be gone now..Off to indonesia and then to America..we will probably not see him again..at least not in the near future but our friendship will hold..a person like him cannot be forgotten..even know,weeks after his departure..his presence is still missed..out of sight,out of mind...not true for someone special like ferdo..his influence still lingers and his companionship is truly and sorely missed..how often his name is mentioned during conversations between members of 127..how we wish that he is still with us..we are like cattle who have lost their sheperd..lost without a guide..without someone to listen to us and advise us..we have taken to imagining him and what he would say..just to find a solution to our problems..just to know his presence for that few seconds..to know that we did know such a wonderful person and that despite his absence..he is still with us..a permanent fixature in the wonderful memories we have together..


Ah well..enough..im missing him more and more writing this long overdue post..enough with the senoh well..im off now..gotta do other things..this post like super long la..take hours to write..now i so tiredT_T...hope u like this "testimonial" ferdo!Must treat me when you come back ah for singing your praises=P..jaXD


Enough of this sentimentality..Ferdo is the perfect friend and a terrible enemy..i mean..u think im bitchy and extremely cruel and hurtful when im in the mood..well.....is somewhat like me...though his is of a slightly different nature..know this then..Ferdo is probably the only person who has ever managed to shut both me and ... up..so be prepared..he is not a person to be triffled with..and oh yeah..i and some others.. think that he is object of lust for julia and her gang..and he called me fucking bo liao when i mentioned this to him..grr..he may be sensitive and all..but he sure is blind!u guys help me collect evidence hor..we'll show him!whoops..im supposed to praise ferdo here..sorry2..
(photos will be added when lynnette send em to me=D)



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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Blah...so many people complain that i never update my blog ler..well..sorry la..but how am i supposed to know that people wanna read when no one tags..humph..oh well..since i finished writing in the card kia yong made for melissa ler and im kinda free(actually i got alow hw..but well..as my friend wei ting used to say..."relack la mun..can always do homework later...at most also copy la"...(he damm basket..always making fun of me coz i always procrastinating and at last resorting to copying to escape being scolded))lolx..like maths ah..so many brackets..but this time no need follow bodmast rule and do inner brackets first..aniwae..the card damm cute la..really one of a kind de and no..its not because kia yong my friend thats why i say this..u juz have to see it to noe wat i mean..lolx...maybe melissa will take a pic and send it to me so i can upload it..=D


Yay..tomorrow is melissa's birthday=D..haha..i planned like a month in advance for her birthday..coz she is my fav gal outside my class..and well...despite us not ever being in the same class or in contact with each other for more den 10s in school..its like a hi and bye kind of thing..we remained good friends=D..heh..i still remember the first time i saw her..i tot she was the most attractive gal in yjc..i think i had a crush on her then=X..and nvr did i tot that we would even like know each other exist..but well..we became more den juz acquaintances..she was the only gal who entertained me by playing the "Hi" game which everyone thought was damm childish coz whoever said hi first when seeing the other wins..lolx..but my classmates helped by telling me wenever they see her..so i will win..but dumb2 gobi always helped melissa..so not fair la..i always surrounded by my classmates..so easy to spot me..cheat2..heh..i bet my classmates wanted to play too..but they juz wanna act cool and uninterestedXD


Heh..i dunnoe if u noticed but lots of people we deem friends..we rarely interact with outside of school,working place,cca..wateva...its like we only remember they exist coz we have to interact with them given the forced situation..so can we call sum1 a friend knowing that when school is over..the "friend" will be "forgotten"?sure2...lots of poeple say friends forever..but please..reality check here..an example..u noe..say u damm bloody close to ur p6 class in ur opinion and graduated with em and stuff..but isnt it awkward when u meet up now..they have changed and so have you and there is lil in common now if there ever was..a paradigm u might say of friendship...friends forever only applies to true friends..by true friends i mean..friendship at a lvl where constant interaction is no longer necessary to maintain it..long periods of silence while in each other's company is not uncomfortable or awkward but pleasant..there is no need for facades to impress or hide one's flaws,just being ourselves and lastly to know without a doubt that should one ever need help..the friend is there=D


Mel is one of my true friends..in front of her..i have no need for facades..i would like to say that we click exclusively but im discrediting her..she juz has this brilliant personality that draws others to her..have u ever watched a moth and a flame and how attracted the moth is to the flame..to the point of it getting burnt and dying..thats how mel is..except that she isn a flame..she is like the sun..warm and comforting but never deceitful enough to take advantage of the trust others place in her like the flame did to the moth..


heh..she is extremely popular in school..though the jc1s dunnoe her and some saying she not pretty like my classmates..coz they asked me who i e.c in school..den the only person is melissa lor..but who cares what they think..i never loved someone for their looks..i love them for their personality and character..joel,kia yong,my 127 classmates,my clique..i love them all...unpolished jewels thats what they are..one only has to spend some effort to see beyond the first impression and get to know the sparkling and unique individual within..


i remembered thinking that i may have fallen again..coz i fancied myself in love with kia yong..i was scared..i nvr want to be confused and vulnerable again..like i did with joel..i couldn talk to my 127 classmates seriously about it coz they wouldn understand despite them loving me and me them coz we already have preconceived notions about each other that will be a herculean task to change and so i found myself talking to melissa about it..she was all i could want in a confidante..non-judging and non-pitiying..well..a huge plus is that ky and her are friends too..so she knew what i was talking about..she listened attentively to my flood of emotional story telling and compared it to my experience with joel..there were many parallels between both cases and she pointed it out to me..meaning that i love kia yong the way i love joel..haha..i was saved..i love em like brothers(so people..im straight!yes ah!so ppl hu tink im lusting over ky..ur so dead wrong!..waa haaa haaaXD)..well..joel is already my ge-ge...heh..and at that moment..i realized i loved melissa like i would a sister..


Lolx..last paragraph..i bet u readers are already cursing me for writing yet another long and boring post..like wat a total waste of time reading right?haha..aniwae..im a sentimental and sensitive fellow who has always placed stock in emotions..hell..i was sobbing like i juz got dumped when i watched only the first episode of gokusen..how lame is that..and juz for the record..i haven got dumped before..coz im not even attached before..haha..my point is that im really touched for last wednesday melissa walked me to the mrt station from school eventhough she had to walk back alone coz she had cca..i was like so happy my face was plastered with a grin the entire journey back home to pasir ris from yishun..and yes...this is despite the train being freaking crowded and i had to stand..lolx..this coming from a boy who don mind waiting for 4hrs doing nothing for a double deck bus so it wont be crowded and to get a seat..haha..HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA!..Love ya!=D



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Sunday, April 20, 2008

Enough is enough!Im like so totally sick of being a loser..im juz pathetic..a coward making excuses for my failures and flaws..i mean everyone has something bad going on in their life that they have no control over..but do they wallow over it and refuse to move on..of coz not..but not me..i have spent more than half my life waiting for my life to change for the better..and it still hasn't..i cant wait anymore..im gonna change it and im gonna do it my way..no more doubts and hesitancy..i can only depend on myself and dammit i will discover myself again and pave my own way to success...FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION!


Wasted potential..Thats what lotsa people have been in regards to me for close to 10 freaking years..i act like i don care..its my potential..so i can do what i bloody please about it..so mind your own business and shut ur goddamm trap about it..but deep down..it really hurts..i call people who worked hard for their results LOSERS..they are dumb..thats why they have to work so hard..not me..im smart and i can always do it if i want to..in truth..i admire them for having the discipline,perseverance and determination to succeed..i resent them for i wished i had those qualities in me too..but i don't..i act as i don care about my studies..yet..why do i always compare my score to others and feel terrible when i fail..i believe i am superior to others in terms of intellectual capacity but am i really?Im just a person to be pitied who's living in his own delusions and clinging to past glories..im afraid to try..for i have no talent..nothing but empty pride of times that have long gone..its now or never..i have to take the risk..come what may..i have to try..to rediscover myself..to explore my potential and most of all..to love myself again..


I remember a time when my report cards were filled with glowing comments by my teachers and how i loved going to school..when i need not go with my parents for PTD to hear what my teachers have to say about me for they have nothing to complain about and much to praise me about..when i didn't even thought of going to see a doctor to get valid leave from going to school..when pe was delightful for it was a chance for bonding, fun and laughter and homework was pleasant to do..when i had no worries..a happy-go-lucky boy loved by his friends..where is that boy now?did he really exist?i miss him..


Im trying this year..yet its so freaking difficult..The long years of having not use my brain much has certainly extracted a high price from me..my brain is rusty from being left to rot somewhere in the almost empty shell i call a skull..wats more..my foundations are like really weak and it may juz crush any time..sometimes..i juz wanna give up..but i cant..i wanna prove to myself that i can do it again..that it is still somewhere within me to excel and that it wasn a fluke..i have no choice aniwae..if i fail again..im juz doomed for life..


Im on my way there..im passing up all my hw for the 1st time in my life..though im still not studying..going for pe eventhough im still adamant at not playing group sports..and my teachers have nothing bad to say about me..cept that i should take better care of my health and study..but they are confident of me getting promoted the way i am now..juz not confident i will do well for my A..but they assure me..if i wanna do it..i can get A's for their subjects..so yeah..i will study 30 mins per day coz i promised mr lim,my chemistry teacher that i will do so..coz chemistry is my fav subject and he is my fac teacher this yr..plus i wanna take h3 chemistry!=D


cya!its 1.30 in the morning..gotta sleep..have mathematics ca tomorrow morningT_T



8:01 PM ; smile'

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Hooray!!!Another A!This time for project work!=D..waa kaa kaa..together with the A for MT..2 A's down..another 5 A's to go..Im aiming for 7 A's so i can top YJC and of coz get into law school..though i have to admit..Getting my face plastered onto the walls of yjc for years to come and having a story published about me in the newspapers are incentives enough..hmm hmm..


Aiyah...but i a little bit sad la..i mean...sure i hoped i will get my A's for the subject i took for A lvls when i was in my first year in YJC particularly coz i already got retained so i kinda hoped for something positive to have came out of that year..so that it wasn a total waste..so well..i kinda made a deal with myself that if i got both A's..i will really study like Crap to obtain 7 A's and well..i got it..but in a way i didn want it..coz now i really have to mug for the results i promised myself..no excuses ler..coz god gave me what i wanted..now my turn to fulfill my part of the deal..haiz..bye2 slacker hermanT_T...im gonna die..1st time im actually going to really study in my life..Urgh!!!


On to happier things..when i said i wanted A's to balance out my wasted year..i was wrong..it wasn wasted..given the chance..i will still have chose to retain if only i got to spend 1 year with yjc 127 of 2007..it was in 127 that i met people who really accepted others for who they are..friends who really care and accept each other for who they are despite the teasing and jokes at each other's expenses..i mean..practically everyone in 127 knew about the joel situation and they were ok with it..it was in 127 that i realize that despite differences and sometimes dislike for things inherent in others that juz seem offensive..we can see beyond that and love the person for the positive qualities that far outnumber the negative and become friends that would go the distance for one another.examples readily come to mind..weiwen's house catching fire and helping him clear the mess..helping april escape unscathed from yee kiat..ferdo's scrapbook not to mention the numerous birthday parties we organized for each member of the classXD


Oh yeah..My entire group got an A for project work..which is like a super bonus^___^..coz we like worked really2 hard for pw..i mean sure our classmates said our grp was the best in class..but someties..i wasn so sure..coz sometimes the obstacles seem unsurmountable and we are juz like stucked in a ditch...unable to progress and getting short with another another dues to pw related stress while other groups seem like they are enjoying smooth sailing..we bickered alot and stayed lots2 in school fighting a wearisome battle with sleep trying to complete our annoying wr in the school library..haha..i tink we would have collapsed and given up if our fabulous leader and the man-behind-the-throne..jie ying and ferdo respectively were not around..jie ying wrote each of us a personal letter..telling us not to give up and reminding us that we were the best group around and the A is more or less ours!hell yeah!!lolx..stroking our ego and praising our personal capabilities was a stroke of genius jie ying..lolx..not to mention..u bribing us with swensens,manhattan fish market and oh yah..FULLERTON!!!!Ferdo..lolx..the dictator,slave master,boss..urgh..wateva..he sure was a hard task master..wanting everything done his way and to perfection no less..but its only thanx to him that the job got done..haha..i tink jie ying and ferdo the aspiring politicians will sure become great leaders of countries one day..coz they have a gift of getting people to listen and do wat they want..ferdo bribed us with pizza lolx but the other groups joined us in eating the free pizza coz all of us were friends classmates and staying back together=D


heh..i cant forget my other group mates can i?jerene and shamine were great too!shamine being the only 1 of us daring enough to altercate with ferdon on a constant basis..haha..proud to be a gal she is..haha..i tink secretly she noe ferdo is a sucker for gals and wont dare do anything to her..haha..sly gal..lolx..i tink i wasn the only one who tot she would make a compatible couple with ferdoXD..haha..shamine was always defending me from ferdo and adrian..lolx..hey!..i didn choose to hide behind a gal..she chose to protect me=P..haha..jerene..lolx..she ah..always busy2 with art..den so stress..always cry..haiz..i tink she felt guilty coz she didn really have time to contribute much for pw but hey..it wasn her fault..she did her part and we understood if she had to take longer to finish some parts..heh..but she contributed in other ways..by like giving some really2 great suggestions..our debate styled presentation was her baby^^..lolx..it was certainly an experience doing pw and while it was damm fun it was also damm exhausting..im really glad its over now!we all got an A!waa haa haa!


Heh..YJC did like super well la..51%A,44%B and 5% C..nothing lower then a C..this is like damm bloody good can..coz its like way better den many jcs and higher den national average..plus the year before us only like 15 ppl get A...now 300+..see the improvement..haha..my class no C..all A and B..but like damm sad for lynnette and chervonne la..they like work their asses of but got a B..chervonne was like the best presenter la..she super deserve an A..lynnette practised and practised and improved herself tremendously but wth..its like a serious screwed up la..stupid examiners..shouldn they like review the thing again?


hmm...of my friends ourside class..all did well..melissa got a B..but unlike chev and lyn she like happy about it..melissa is crazy..she everything also ok..aiyah..as long as she happy with her B..i happy for her=D..dammit..evil hidayah got an A..waah..so suay..now i tie with her again..2 A each..no lah..i very happy for her..where got i so bad want ppl to lose so i can win..later dey sad i also sad..i such a softieT_T..nvm..good2..she tie with me right..means we have to challenge again..this time the challenge is who can get more A's and higher A lvl points..damm hard la...waa haa haa..we so competitive..we going to work our ass off to up each other..i cant wait..may the best person win=P..kia yong got an A also..haha..i see him so happy..i think coz he worked damm hard for pw but didn really expect an A coz his language not so strong..he like lil kid like dat..jumping and shouting around with his groupmates over his A..i see him..no choice but to smile..so cute..lolx..humph..i didn do something so undignified like dat..i only approached our teacher miss wong with my grp when she bid us to..and no..we werent holding hands..and we werent like frightened lil kiddies trembling with apprehension...and we were definitely not squealing like2..umm i dunnoe..when she announced our entire group got an A..i admit we high fived each other though..high five is cool ok..


oh yeah..when there's good times..bad times are lurking around the corner..on our way home..we all got scammed..i got scammed the worst..$10 for 2 heart shapped paper clips and 2 tiny paper stars..urgh..i don wanna tink about this ler..so paiseh..bye2!



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thePROFILE;

Name: Herman
Clique Title: The Bitch XD
Age: 18+
Birthday: 22 August 1989
Horoscope: Leo
School: Elias Park->Victoria school->Yishun JC

theLOVE;

People i love:
My Family...
-mama
-Older Sister(Dahliah-Katak)
-Younger Brother(Ardhi-Kiki)
-Younger Sister(Amirah-Momo)
-Granpa
-Grandma(departedT_T)
-Aunty Yati
-My maid(Tante)
My Clique...
*Mubaraq(Mubs-The SLUT)
*Nur M.(Mat-Fat2)
*Ernest(Ernie)
*Daniel(Dan"Knight")
*Ken(The Flash Bomb)
*Sadik(The Blind)
*Karthik(The Dog)
~Roy(My Oldest Best Friend)
~Kia Yong(My gege=D)
~All My Friends^____^
Hobbies:reading, sleeping, shopping, swimming, badminton, gaming, chit-chatting..got alot more=X

theHATE;

I HATE MYSELF!!!

theWISH;

(1) My loved ones to be happy and in good health=D
(2) Promotion to jc 2 this yearT_T
(3) 7A's for A lvls(5 more to go!!!)
(4) An i-phone =X
(5) Bag similar to my current 1..brown,canvas and leather blend:)
(5) Becoming a better person-_-
(6) Making a difference with my life^_^

theCHATTERBOX;


theEXITS;

April
Melissa
Jie Ying
Lynnette
Shamine
Chervonne
Phyllis
Jerene
Ms Denise Ong
Nurayn
127 Class Blog
Weiwen
Daniel
Billy
Liak Y.H.

thePAST;


February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
February 2009

theMUSIC;

ur music code here

theCREDITS;
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